Valentine’s Day…..Embracing Self-love and Hope

Last year and in years past…Valentine’s Day always left me feeling a little sad and longing... like there was something missing…an emptiness in my life.   I never begrudged those who were celebrating each other on V-day.  But, watching  them  reminded me that I was alone and probably would be alone for the rest of my life….mostly because I felt old and unattractive...and that, that ship had long sailed away for me…unlovable.

But, this year was different!  Really different!   I am still single and no real prospects in sight…but I can honestly say that I had a wonderful day yesterday and I have a totally different (NEW) attitude!!    I truly have a new sense of hope! 

Actually, yesterday was an incredibly affirming day!  A day of self love and of reflecting on God’s great love for me.   I am still physically tinkling and feeling quite alive and exhilarated!  I put on one of my cutest outfits this morning and I am feeling fine… healthy, alive and secure!!   And, above all I really, really like myself!!!  And every thing about me…even “Alice” ( more about Alice in my next post! LOL).  That’s a great feeling!!  Can’t remember when I was so completely satisfied and in love with myself.   Not in a boastful, arrogant or prideful way…just a loving, caring…totally agape love way…the way God loves us.

So yesterday morning my daughter, God-P and several friends sent me Valentine’s Day text and e-card greetings. I sent the same …But a Facebook message I received  early yesterday morning , that read:  If God were to send you a Valentine’s Day card it would simply read:  “I love you more!”   Wow, that hit me like a bolt of lightening ….better yet…like a cupid’s arrow from God.   I mean, I could have been in a loving marriage or relationship for 40 plus years by now and that statement would still be true!!!   God loves me more!!!  Thus!  I am incredibly and wonderfully loveable!!!   .

So that love was  the guiding force for the rest of my day!!!  I was lovin’ on myself all day in every way I could.   I  exercised,  I pampered my body and dressed it cute,   I ate  well,  I bought myself a gift and had a great dinner and evening with myself…I was so happy!!!  And I am still experiencing that same joy today!    Probably, because I woke up this morning from having a wonderful dream where I met a wonderful man and we were evenly yoked and having a great relationship!  I woke up excited and hopefully that being alone for the rest of my life is not the future God has for me.    However, if it is…one thing I know for sure…GOD LOVES ME MORE!!!   And that truth is the source of much joy, peace and hope!!!

Post Note:  I was lovin so much on myself ...that when I weighed in tonight at TOPS  I had gained two lbs!!!    just water weight I know...it will be off in a couple of days... but whatever... it was worth it!!!   lol and I am still moving forward!!!